Forewarning - I might ramble here some.
Got up at 0400 and was at the pool ready to be in at 0433. Kim and I just stood there talking for 7 minutes before finally surrendering to get in. Getting in is BY FAR the worst part of the workout. I truly feel that once you get in, you are already halfway there.
Did a 2000 set to start. There were some long pull sets in the 2k. Marcia has challenged me to try to keep the pull buoy at my ankles. This was TOUGH. I spent a huge amount of time focusing on my ankles, how weird it felt, and how much my creamy inner thighs were tiring out from keeping my legs pressed together. I kept thinking it would be easier to swim like a slut and keep my legs wide open. My stroke went to hell quickly. Doing this shows you your core strength...or in my case, lack of it! After 200 I moved it to my knees. I'll have to slowly get better at that ability.
After that I did some 500's going faster each one. I was on a time limit and keeping the times going faster proved to be difficult at the end. I made it on each one and was getting faster but at the very end, I was putting forth max effort to get my time faster than before. I was pretty tired at the end but was happy to have be done. I LOVE getting out of the pool feeling like I am physically wasted and really tired. I just know I did good and it will only make me improve.
I also LOVE walking out of the gym at 0630 and walking past people going in thinking....hehe I'm DONE!
I also LOVE walking out in only shorts and a t-shirt when it's 37 and feel WARM! I can't remember the last time I've worn a jacket outside after a workout this year or even thought that I was close to cold.
One small thing that keeps coming into my head is effort. For some reason, I do what I need to at the start of a workout but I seem to "hold back" more effort because of a stupid fear of bonking before I'm done with my workout. I feel like I gotta hold some in so I don't "run out of gas" before the workout is over. It's another mental obstacle I gotta get over. It was a habit I had last year and it annoyed me then too. I would do a 4 mile swim at Pineview and go normal for 2 miles, a bit faster on the 3rd and hardest on the 4th. I'd be REALLY moving it on the last mile and when I was done, I felt like I could have gone longer. Why didn't I start/hold that pace at mile 2? Oh, I'm scared to...that's why! I need to just go for it and if I crash out then I do. I've never gone really hard for a long time just to see how long it would take before I crashed. I need to do that. I have a feeling I'm going to surprise myself. I did some of it last year with the Alcatraz swim. I swam at my "redline" for 30 min straight and never faltered!
Well today during my 500's I knew I was putting in serious effort on the last few. For once in a long time, I drove to work after swimming not thinking "I could have done more....I could have held that longer...etc". I drove today knowing I did my best. If I want to seriously improve this year, I have to stop being a "cat" and I better be willing to crash halfway through a workout...I'm willing to bet it won't come as quick as I "anticipate".